people say that i am crazy and blind
but i am willing to risk it all away
am i so blind that i keep making myself go through this shit?
there are so many out there and yet it is you i want,still want,will ever want.
why?why the fuck do i feel this way?
you've made it clear about where i stand.
so why am i tearing up as i write this out?
i am not ashamed to admit that.
call me loser.whatever.
this is the only outlet i have to let all of this out.
i certainly won't be saying any of this to you personally.
you've got so much issues of your own that you are going through.
see?this is my problem.
i care too much.it's my fucking weakness.
that and the fact that my knees go weak everytime i see you.

i may not look like it,but inside,my heart is in turmoil.
this emotional rollercoaster,i've been on it for way too fucking long.
let me out.please.
i will never be as good as he was.
i will never be able to do the things he did for you.
i don't aim to.
because in the end,he broke your heart.
and that's not what i want.
i want to save you.heal you.
tell me why can't i be there where you are?
am i so bad?are your standards just so fucking high?
you said that,back then,i came at the wrong time.
when IS the right time?
i don't blame you.
i suppose i am just not good enough for you.

" i've got this feeling
that you're not gonna stay
it's burning within me

i wish i didn't need you so bad
your face just won't go away"

-asyraf

Labels: a hopeless romantic