too long for sure
i have been running away
it is time i stop trying
a new beginning
on the horizon
version 1.0
will be unveiled
i will stare down a loaded gun
the future is mine for the taking
look
look
look
into this new future's face

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MARS IS COMING.
THE COUNTDOWN BEGINS.
30 DAYS LEFT.


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hari raya is here?already?
time flies huh?
well,i am not really looking forward to raya-ing
i'm looking forward more to driving.
Dad is letting me drive the MPV for raya.
awesome.
strangely,i am also looking forward to school re-opening.
i'm looking forward to playing soccer again.
i am looking forward to October.
lots of cool thing happening in October.
i don't why im not in the mood for raya.
to be honest,i havent been in the mood for the past couple of years.
i've lost that passion i suppose.
i have outgrown it.
oh wells...


p.s. the countdown begins....

okay i didnt want to post anything emo.
so this is my official list of vehicles that i have driven so far.
in numbered order:-

1)Nissan Latio Sedan(Auto)
2)Citroen Berlingo 1.6(Manual)
3)Nissan Presage 2.5 MPV(Auto)
4)Mistubishi Lancer GLX(Manual)

p.s. these are not mine nor my family car.

i don't like it as much as you don't.
i don't want to be vengeful towards you.
there is no point.
we're both are more matured than that.
so let's stop running
and start facing

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it may seem like i don't care
it may seem like it does not affect me
it is all just a pretense
because deep down
i am afraid
afraid of the hurt
afraid of getting broken again
afraid of the answer
afraid of failing again
afraid of the disappointment
afraid i will never be able to pick myself again

i lie to myself every single moment
that i do not care anymore
the honest fact is
i still do
i still check on you
even though you will never know
i am happy whenever you are
i wish you would let me reach out to you everytime you go down
i wish you were here..
but i do not have the courage
to believe...

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blogger hates me.
it just wont let me post pictures.
i guess i will just have to post on twitter.
i have great pics of me and the guys sheesha-ing last week.
oh wells.

anyway,things are so-so i suppose.
my relationship with my family is getting better.
thats a good thing.
i went shopping the other day.
bought clothes and jeans.
next,vans sneakers.
i might have to declare bankrupt soon.


so lately a few things have been on my mind.
i miss a few people.
one of whom i would probably never see again.
even if i do,she'll avoid me.
others are people i havent seen for some time.
and to you,
out of them all,
i miss you the most.

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