the holidays has only just started
but,due to issues i am having at home,
i couldn't make it to W15P's chalet outing.
i feel bad.
heck,i am already starting to miss those idiots.
thinking about them,
the fun we had,
the errmmm,hard work we have done in class,
makes me wish we do not have to change classes next semester.
heck,we've only like really started to bond for about the past 3-4 weeks i think?
shit.
my new class better be as awesome as W15P.
or i swear i will beat them up upside down and inside out.
oh and there better be hot chicks too next semester.
at least that way,i won't miss W15P too much.
W15P rules.
the next batch who uses our class next semester,
DO NOT MESS UP THE ROOM.
or else we will come back for you people.

the way i see it
life is black and white
the bright lights are captivating
almost irresistable even
sorrow holds no meaning there
trouble is non-existent

but look deeper
open your eyes
open your minds
even with eyes wide shut
you will see
it is full of fakes and frauds

i chose to live my life in the dark
unlike the fakes and frauds of the famed bright lights
the dark will never betray me
the dark is all i have
i've tried living my life on the other side
but it stabbed me in the back
staked my heart
and left me bleeding

love is a big shot there
but love is nothing more than just a word
a word the sadly ignorant utter with lustful desire
ironically,love is just loneliness in disguise
when you have had your share
love shoots you in the face
leaving you
traumatised
miserable
hopeless
hapless
despairing
desperate
and ultimately,
LONELY

Love
is a misguided,deluded misconception
Love
is a lie i have no faith
and do not believe in

...

'i hide in the shadows;
the bright lights shuns me'




p.s blog song

God Wears Gucci - blessthefall

as promised.
their new single.

i am sick of it.
i am sick of falling.
i am sick of hoping.
i am sick of waiting.
i am sick of thinking.
i am sick of YOU.
i am fucking tired.
i am fucking pissed.
friends?what friends?
never there when the time really calls for it.
i am fucking alone.
yeah my post is emo again.
so what?fuck you and your opinions.
what do i care?
do you care?
fuck off.
and they said 'go find love.you're in a pathetic mess'
here's my reply
FUCK LOVE.
I DO NOT BELIEVE IN LOVE.

so she said
'Jared Leto and 30 Seconds to Mars?
Yeah i've heard of them
awesome?
nah...
they are bland,boring and well....sucky.
no offence.'


BLAND??
BORING??
SUCKY!!??

she literally broke my heart with those words.
hahah
nah.
its her opinion.
i told her no offence taken and i meant it.

and you,
i saw you looking at me.
though you tried to hide by quickly looking away.
when i look at your face,
beautiful it may be,
it reminds me
of why i walked away.
but somehow and strangely,
i actually miss you...
i don't know how and why our friendship turned sour.
its probably because of your idiotic guy.
but i wish
i could turn back time...

'it can be repaired,
so be prepared'

...

p.s blog song

Sailing Around The Room - Of Machines

one of the best vocals in the underground rock scene.
wait for it.
enjoy the 1+ min of instrumental
then when the vocals and screams kick in,
get ready to be blown away...

i received a few complaints(again)
that my blog song is too noisy(yes.she said noisy.)
so here's something lighter
for the conservative ears
:)

blog song is now
City on the edge of Forever by A Skylit Drive


UT3 is here
my mind is only on two things
surviving Dad at home.
the other thing?
well.......

okay i got a few complaints
that my posts are too emo and depressing.
so this post will be different.or rather,a typical blog post like other people's.
here's to you people...

today was awesome.
we had cognitive in school.
and our faci the best,awesome ever.
well for this semester anyway.
hahah
i am so gonna miss the guy.
he is so nice to us.
he bought us treats and stuff.
and today he bought Ruffles and M&Ms for everyone.
awesome or what?

i seriously cannot believe that two more lessons and the semester is over.
next semester we will be split up into different classes.
and let me just say that suck balls.big balls.
W15P is so motherfucking awesome.
everyone is just so cool.
well except for one guy.and we all know who i am talking about.
i am gonna miss my brothers in crime.
Guntur,Khan,Afiq,Darren,Rayson,Steven,Jason.
the kopitiam smoke breaks that we have daily.
the fun.
the laughter.
the jokes.
the lookout for chicks.
the messing with the intercom guy in the lifts.
the daily misuse of the hand sanitizer.
the...everything...
it feels like i am graduating all over again.
a special thanks to Denny who helped me in my Science.
you and your almost often utterance of 'kage bunshin no jutsu!'
annoying it may be,it will still be missed.

i dont forget the ladies in our class either.
thanks for making these past 15 weeks among the best weeks i have ever had.
oh and i caught a movie with anna today.
after the break up with jason,God knows she needs to take her mind off things.
being the good friend that i am,i accompanied her.
the movie,UP,was generally boring.
but it wasnt totally worthless.
after all,i spent time with a friend.
and thats what matters.
hold your head up high anna.
you'll pull through.
you know where to find me if there's anything.

well its not just goodbyes.
i was introduced to a new friend recently.
so,hello there.
i may not know her that well yet.
but shes pretty damn awesome.
her class is on the same level as mine
and yet i've never noticed her only until recently.
what the hell is wrong with me??
sheesh.
anyway,im glad we're friends :)

on a different note,
blessthefall is back!!
check out their new single,God Wears Gucci,from their new album called Witness which will be released
in October.
the current blog song is by them.
its called 'I Wouldn't Quit If Everyone Quit'
it was the last single when Craig Mabbit was still their frontman.

so thats it.
a lengthy post.its what you guys want isnt it? :)
im pretty sure i forgot to mention some things.
but i'll include it in the next post.
oh and Manan,
you're missed dude.in a manly way of course.
Irni,you're missed dearly too.in a platonic way of course.
i understand how bitchy NAFA can be.so no worries.
take care my friends.

in me blogging as much as before.
my days are predictable.
filled with false hopes.
pretense.
mistakes.
falls.
trip ups.
chokes.
bullshits.

the only things getting me through
are my own patience
my guitar
blessthefall
my bros in school
and the Guy up there.

on the upside,
i was introduced to someone pretty awesome.
but i shall not get ahead of myself.
that is another story for another post.
heh

p.s. i managed to pass all except programming for the UT2.
I got an A,B+,C+,D+ and E.

p.p.s blessthefall has come out with a new single.
its awesome.shall upload a.s.a.p

p.p.p.s feel like picking up smoking again.
or something to take it all away.
even if its for a while...

...

This is the last smile
That I'll fake for the sake of liking you

Everything falls apart
Even the people who never frown eventually break down

My sacrifice of hiding in a lie
My sacrifice is that you will never know the truth


Everything has to end
You'll soon find we're out of time left to watch it all unwind

I will never know
Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away

I've tried like you
To do everything you wanted to
This is the last time
I'll take the blame for the sake of liking you

And this chapter
is about to end

You speak of
Your mistreated heart
Yet you are too blind and selfish to see
You're doing unto me what you don't want unto you

I said i would never rest one day
And i never did
But you never acknowledged
As i tried to reach for your hand
That i can never hold on


...

so haunting from deep within

the fear of losing you;
i fear is never-ending

its always the difficult ones i get;
and the wrong ones i'm after

it takes me to an all-time low
...

i would keep on screaming
but there's really nothing left
for me to say

all i really want now
is for you
to stay

the worst part
is waking up to
a neverending
nightmare

waking up
to continue the chase
of a beyond reach
dream

...

there are no more doubts in my mind;
it is you and only you whom i want


but i am willing to take it slow

...