just what the fuck is going on?
i waited.
thats what the fuck happened.
i waited.
and just like that.
its all motherfucking gone.
i was so certain.
you were the one.
fuck.
WHY!?
why does it have to always be this way?
why?
why me?
shit.
its motherfucking 6 in the fucking morning.
with you on my mind.
and i came across them.
and the motherfucking pain.
it fucking hurts!
fuck i promised myself
i would never let myself
get shot
get broken
ever again
but just look at me now.
fucking pathetic.
heartbroken.again.
i fucking allowed myself
to get heartbroken.again.
drowning in my own misery.
at 6 in the fucking morning.
fucking alone.
at home.
what the fuck has become of me?
i dont have a soul anymore.
fuck.
i dont have a heart anymore.
it can never be pieced again.
and i am going to have to face you.
the whole day.
today.
i will be painfully reminded.
constantly.
did i mentioned it fucking hurts?
it fucking hurts damn it!

'i still want you
i still need you
i will wait for you'

i am digging my own grave
you will never feel the same way
but mine just won't go away