lost
clueless
unsure
undecided
i am trying to keep it
the way you want it
i am struggling to hold myself in
i am burning up
tearing up on fire
this passion inside
begs to be set free
but there are lines i can't cross
and promises i have to keep
the questions are
when and how

...

'watching it all unfolds awkwardly;
from a distance in misery'