a fucking failure..
i would like to sincerely apologise to khai for my behaviour after the trials earlier.
it's not that i am jealous of you for making the team.
in fact,as your good friend,i am glad and proud you made it to the team man.
you deserve it.it's what you've always wanted.
but i was just too disappointed and angry at myself for being a failure.
i'm sorry i did not congratulate you proper man.
i'll make it up to you..



'and they keep saying:
thanks for being there for me.thanks for understanding me.
but i keep whispering:
what about...
me?...'