a lunatic's lament

'Razor's Edge'

I feel nothing,fuck like sick despair.
All this suffering,goddamn don't you care?
Here's the rope,tie me up to the bed
Pull it hard,break the skin,take me out of my head
There's just one thing,all I ask you to do
A small something,here's my body to use
Place my soul in a box and believe
The world's not ready
To fault misery

Count down the days that you have kept me alive
In this place,only the willing survive
It's my pleasure cut with one hand
I'm the queen of the dark,I command.
There's just one thing all I want you to do
A small something heres my body to use
Show the world how to fear and blaspheme
Here's the rope,pull it tight
Show me dark and obscene

The smoke clears and in whispering waves of self mutilation I see the dark sky fall to pieces the world is sometimes too heavy to breathe and the dead surround me like an ocean I can't recognise the reflection looking back though the mirror as if some sort of silent stranger with mean eyes and a deadly stare he sees everything are why? then with one last glimmer defiant I'm transformed into a monster a giant with no heart no limbs no desire this is not a suicide letter I just want a real close look at death touch his mattered hair as I pass him by

You slash my heart on a razor's edge.
on the razor's edge.
Don't worry,we'll mend it.
stay with me..

-acap-