a lunatic's lament

making a point...

Its that time of the year again..
a new beginning for me.and with it,comes the promise of an end.
an end to my failures,my faults,my apprehensions,my waitings.
an end to those who don't believe in me.an end to the haters.an end to those who used me.
whatever happened in the past year,i'm gonna forgive and forget all about it.
to the people who hurt me in one way or another,physically,mentally or emotionally,well,
screw you.if you did any of the above,we're probably not on talking terms anymore right now.
but hey,if you're willing to admit your mistakes and not let your egos get in the way,i am all for starting over.
to the people whom i have hurt in the past year,you know how i am.most of the time its not you that i'm actually mad at.you guys sometimes just happen to be in the wrong place at the wrong time.but in any case,i'm sorry for taking it out on people who don't deserve it.

In this new chapter of my life,i have a lot to concentrate on at the moment.like for example,we have a show at ITE Simei's forum on 15 Feb.And the band have not practised yet.But we'll get to that soon.I'm busy writing songs too.Main aim is to have enough songs for an EP.Which i'm hoping we'll get to record by the middle of this year.
School is also hounding my ass.2 and half months of my NITEC education left to go.Assesments and tests are all over the place.I'm getting worried.GPA 3.3 is not really enough to secure a place in any poly.I'm gonna have to go for desperate measures.
My BTT is also coming up next week.Yep,for the third time.Sheesh,i better pass this time round.If not,i don't know when the hell i'm gonna complete my driving license.
Work on weekends is okay.Tired but i'm coping well.Besides,i need the money.So many stuff i wanna get and not enough money.
There's also the trip to Malaysia with my friends in March to think about.I have to get $250 for the 4d3n trip by then.Maybe i'll rob a bank...hmmm....
And amid all these chaos,i'm also trying hard to keep up my fitness and improving my all round game as a soccer player.My left shoulder and hip are still sore after the hard fall i had last week while playing soccer.But i'll be fine i think.

Anyway,that's about it.Thank you to God and my family.To 30 Seconds to Mars and Liverpool FC for constantly inspiring me.To the people who have stuck by me through thick and thin.You guys are the reason i'm still believing.You know who you are.To the non-believers,you people are the reason i'll keep going.Farhan,happy birthday to you too man.Naz,good luck trying to survive NS.To the rest of you,i'll see you on Friday.And good luck trying to stop me from scoring. :D

'At the end of the day,its just a number.
What matters is how you carry yourself...'

updated blog song:-

End Of The Beginning

Here we are searching for a sign
Here we are searching for a sign
It's the end here today
But I will build a new beginning
Take some time, find a place
And I will start my own religion

As the day divides the night
Here we are searching for a sign

Watch the men multiply
See them ease out of the circle
Watch your friends run and hide
Help them fall back in this cycle

Here we are searching

You saw what you get
If you take what you take
Look in the eye of the test
It's all because...
Now there's a feeling I get
When I look to the left
But it should never be sensed
Our searching for a sign

Can you feel it?
Things are changing
Can you see it?
Watch as the worlds colliding
Can you see it?
Can you feel it?
Watch as the worlds...
Collide into themselves
Collide into themselves

Another time, another place
Another time, another place
Some paradigm has shunned the race
Some paradigm has shunned the race

Searching
You saw what you get
If you take what you take
Look in the eye of the test
It's all because...
Now there's a feeling I get
When I look to the left
But it should never be sensed
Our searching for a sign

You saw what you get
If you take what you take
Look in the eye of the test
It's all because...
Now there's a feeling I get
When I look to the left
But it should never be sensed
Our searching for a sign

-acap-

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