Tuesday, December 30, 2008, 2:53 PM
mind numbing confusion......
'updated blog song'
this was recorded back in 2005.
i love the way Jared Leto takes on the last chorus.
how many actors can sing as well as he does live?
not many i tell you.
Capricorn (Acoustic Live)
I will disappear
I told you once and I'll say it again
I want my message read clear
I'll show you the way, the way I'm going
So I run, hide and tell myself
I'll start again with a brand new name
And eyes that see into infinity
I was almost there
Just a moment away from becoming unclear
Ever get the feeling you're gone
I'll show you the way, the way I'm going
So I run, hide and tell myself
I'll start again with a brand new name
And eyes that see into infinity
So I run, start again
With a brand new name
With a brand new name
So I run and hide and tell myself (so I run)
I'll start again with a brand new name (start again)
And eyes that see into infinity (with a brand new name)
I will disappear
-acap-
Labels: ......on the borderline of insanity
Friday, December 26, 2008, 10:52 PM
your grave is set up.......
'updated blog song'
Do It For Me Now
I'm frightened at night and the wind has a roar
It seeps through the hall and from under the door
Like the shit that was said
I can't take it that well
I give and I give and I give and I give and I'm still
Lost and hurt and bone thin from the love that's been starved
I know it got close but I'm sure it's too far
From the point of suspense, we know it should be
The end of that part of our favorite movie
When the guy grabs the girl and gives her his hand
Says take me away from this torturous land
Cause the grave is set up, the hole that I dug
I gave and I gave and I gave and I gave you my trust
Like the time that we kissed and you gave me a lie
To add to the scene you pretended to cry
But I'm here and I'm cool, the way that it is
Just give me a chance and I'll try to forgive
And I don't know
And I can't guess
If it's gonna be OK
But now my last wish
Is that you do this with me
Kiss me here and hold my hand
Let me feel like I'm the only one
I know you can
Won't you do it for me now
I've really had it with the rain of the tears
The predictable storm that has come every year
And it sneaks in from shore with a bat in its hand
I'm trying I'm trying I'm trying I'm trying I can't
You're a thief and a witch but I love you to death
You steal my heart and curse under your breath
But the one thing that I can most willingly prove
That when you are gone I'll be fine without you
And I don't know
And I can't guess
If it's gonna be OK
But now my last wish
Is that you do this with me
Kiss me here and hold my hand
Let me feel like I'm the only one
I know you can
Won't you do it for me now?
Now just hold on, hold on to me
Hold on, hold on to me (hold on to me)
Hold on, hold on to me (hold on to me)
Hold on, hold on to me (hold on to me)
Hold on, hold on to me (hold on to me)
Hold on, hold on to me (hold on to me)
Hold on, hold on to me (hold on to me)
Hold on, hold on to me (hold on to me)
Hold on, hold on to me (hold on to me)
Hold on, hold on to me
-acap-
Labels: ......the hole that i dug
Tuesday, December 23, 2008, 11:52 AM
glass to.....
'A Heavy Hearted Work of Staggering Genius'
its been an eventful holidays so far.
been working on weekends.
and having fun spending the money on weekdays.
played soccer.writing songs with my guitar.
watched Singapore lost to Vietnam at the National Stadium(i still can't believe they lost.and when the hell is the stadium is gonna be torn down anyway?)
cycled to esplanade and back(that one was really tiring and i swear my ass hasn't looked the same since).
been thinking about the school project too.
worried for manan cause he seems to be having a 'burnt out' period.
and i'm not sure how to help.artistically i'm not creative.
i love the job that i have on weekends.thanks sani,for recruiting me.hahas
thanks to the job,i have managed to gain a lot of experience.explored parts of Singapore that i haven't been to,and made new friends.
oh and during this past week of holidays,
i have also been deliberately ignored by people who i thought is my friend.
i also met a nice personality who at the moment,has the potential to add more meaning to my life(sorry zz.sani,shut up.hahah)
well,thats all for updates.
p.s. what is this that i'm feeling?
i barely know you
i'm not even sure what to make of this situation
but....
what is this that i'm feeling?
'i'm not perfect
but neither are YOU'
-acap-
Labels: .....the arson
Thursday, December 18, 2008, 11:12 PM
perspectives of.....
'updated blog song'
Lost,So Lost
I'm lost, so lost, so lost
I'm falling down
so far down
You said to take a deep breath
we count back from ten, ten, ten
It's the only way that you know how
to begin, begin
Being to tell me everything,
please start at the end
and at the beginning of when
you first met him
I'm lost, so lost, so lost
runaway, runaway
don't stay for him
He's the reason for this darkness
you've been living in
away away from here
we can't stay another year
So we're leaving
on the wings
of the insincere
It's hard to sing when your lungs
don't believe a single word you say
I can hear the voices calling
tell me to go back to yesterday
The day you first felt the illness
an unwillingness to ever change
I can hear the stories blending
as the words being to relive
I'm lost, so lost, so lost
runaway, runaway
don't stay for him
He's the reason for this darkness
you've been living in
away away from here
we can't stay another year
So we're leaving
on the wings
of the insincere
Of the insincere
Runaway, runaway
oh oh oh oh
Runaway runaway
oh oh oh oh
Runaway runaway
oh oh oh oh
Runaway runaway
oh oh oh oh
Runaway, runaway
don't stay for him
he's the reason for this darkness
you've been living in
Away away [x10]
away from here
we can't stay, we cant' stay another year
so we're leaving
on the wings
of the insincere
away away from here
-acap-
Labels: .....conflicting perceptions
from me....
'updated blog song'
Rescue Me
Just breathe
The midnight air will do you well
Believe...
I miss your taste, I miss your smell
The past mistakes that brought you here
Will break the fall for you, my dear
I'll ask the nurse for bandages
Don't send me on my way
Rescue me
from everything, I
just want to live, I
wish I could breathe
Every other day
I sit and wait for same the bad news
Can you hear me say
"I've got nothing left to lose"
Someone please start making sense
And beg the lord for accidents
I've seen the worst case scenario
I'm slowly letting go
Rescue me
from everything, I
just want to live, I
wish I could breathe
[x3]
Rescue me
from everything, I
just want to live, I
wish I could breathe (wish I could breathe)
Rescue me (rescue me)
from everything (everything), I
just want to live, I
wish I could breathe (wish I could breathe)
Rescue me (rescue me)
from everything (from everything), I
just want to live, I
wish I could breathe
-acap-
Labels: .....from you
Sunday, December 14, 2008, 10:38 PM
i'm fucking ordinary.....
'dreams within dreams'
no updates because i've been working.
been working on my guitar and working for money.
p.s. i thought it only happens to people like me.
but it even happens to the best among us.
if that's the case,then i don't fucking care anymore.
if they don't,heck if YOU don't,then why should i?
p.p.s fucking exhausted.
and yes,my exhaustion is contributing to my temper at the moment.
that and the fact that shit keeps happening.
so screw you.
"so hard to create yet so easily condemned"
-acap-
Labels: ......i confess
Friday, December 5, 2008, 10:35 PM
help........
'Some Things Never Change'
well,will be moving off with the family in a few hours.
to a place where the locals don't know what the hell is Playstation Portable.
going back to my dad's kampung in negeri sembilan for hari raya haji.
i am so NOT looking forward to this trip.
i am going against my will.
parents forced me along.
its so fucking boring.
absolutely nothing to do but stare at the chickens.
one would kill oneself because of the sheer boredom.
can't wait for 8 dec.
that's when i come back.
oh and thats when aniysh will be back too.
if she comes back with an aussie accent,i'll make sure she gets back to her senses.
not that she has much in the first place.
hahah. :D
anyway,there something i wanna say.
but i'll post it when i get back.
now i'll go find a way to cancel the trip.
probably go burst the car tyres or something.
wish me luck.
-acap-
Labels: .......me
Asyraf
7 January 1990
Republic Poly
Capricorn
Member of Echelon
Does not believe in love
