'This Could Be Anywhere In The World'


i can be anything u want me to be
i can change your life if it needs be
i can be anywhere you need me to be


but you have to stop taking me for granted first.


-acap-

Labels: ......left for my soul

'DARKNESS'


'In this darkness am I faithless
Without your lips I live without
Am I heartless am I soulless
Without your lips I live without

I'm so hollow when will we wake up
I'm so hollow am I confessed to die
I'm so hollow when will we wake up
I'm so hollow will this dream end tonight

We walked through the rain
And the night became silent
Sleep fell over the sky
And I swear I've never seen anything so beautifully dark

In this silence and this violence
Without your lips I live without
Look I'm lifeless look I'm soulless
Without your lips I live without

I'm so hollow when will we wake up
I'm so hollow am I confessed to die
I'm so hollow when will we wake up
I'm so hollow will this dream end tonight

This darkness am I voiceless
Without your lips I live without
I'm heartless I'm soulless
Without your lips I live without'


-acap-

Labels: ......i live without

'Wan Is Awesome As a Photographer.As proven by this Photos'
(but as a person,im not so sure.hahah)



















'

Labels: .....brushed red

'Just A Little'


Not many of you would have heard of Angels and Airwaves.Even less still would have heard that they're coming to town somewhere in early December.Now,i'm no big fan of theirs.But their songs carry messages of peace,love,war.And that in itself attracts me because it's different then what the rock scene usually offers.AVA's songs make you think about your life.In fact,about life itself.About how messed up it all really is.AVA is made up of former Blink 182 frontman,Tom Delonge.Former Boxcar Racer guitarist,David Kennedy.Former Offspring drummer,Atom Willard.And my bassist idol,the person and reason i got into bass,former 30 Seconds to Mars bassist,Matt Wacther.His bassline solos are wicked.But when needed,he can carry a more than decent rythmn bass.As a tribute to this San Diego,California alternative rock band,the blog song is now 'Start The Machine - Angels And Airwaves'.It's one of my personal favourites from them.It's a song about how you're blamed for something you didn't do and why you won't apologise for it.It's about standing up for what you believe in.This song means a lot to me.

'Start The Machine

The ash set in then blew away
It’s getting lost into the sea
I grew so close to all the thoughts I had to leave forever
I left the chill and voice of screams and kids and ran for shelter

You know I won't say sorry
You know I won't say sorry
The pain has a bad reaction
A blend of fear and passion
You know what it's like to believe
It makes me wanna scream

I see a glow from far away
A faint reflection on the sea
I left some words quite far from here to be a short reminder
I laid them out in stone in case they need to last forever

You know I won't say sorry
You know I won't say sorry
The pain has a bad reaction
A blend of fear and passion
You know what it's like to believe
It makes me wanna scream

I see the stars, they’re in your eyes
A playful kiss, can you tell I'm excited?
A fast escape in the nick of time
If you lost your wish, can I help you find it?
I'm on my knee, just one to start
A fresh new start, don't be undecided

If love’s a word, that you say
Then say it, I will listen
If love’s a word, that you say
Then say it, I will listen
If love’s a word, that you say
Then say it, I will listen
If love’s a word, that you say
Then say it, I will listen
If love’s a word, that you say
Then say it, I will listen
If love’s a word, that you say
Then say it, I will listen (I will listen)'


-acap-

Labels: ......i won't say sorry

'Start The Machine'

mmmmmmmm........coffee...........i want.........
i think i'm addicted to caffeine.i drink about 2-3 cups a day.is that addiction?hahs
anyway,played cage again today with the usual peeps and my abang sedare nye budak2.
hahas
everybody is improving in my opinion.playing against better,bigger opponents really helps you to learn.except raziqin.he's got a bit of mental thing.he lacks self-esteem.and keeps feeling sorry for himself.which is selfish in my opinion.that and he better start stopping his craps soon.

on the music front,i'm about 85% percent done with two new songs.i'm still not completely happy with them though.i feel they can be improved further.only problem is,i don't have the necessary equipments.like synthiesers for example.and i have 2-3 different versions of chorus for each song.i can't make up my mind which suits best.

on the chicks front,i'm staying off gals for awhile.too much painful experiences in the past.i'm not exactly eager to go through all that shit again.buat saket hati je..

on the school front,the project is going pretty well i guess.i can't wait to see the end product.its gonna be the most awesome band website ever.i hope so anyway.hahs.

'love.hate.bleed.hypocrisy.hurt.pain.bliss.lies.hopes.dreams.broken hearts.
you're the cause of it all.'

-acap-

Labels: ....and heartaches

'A Subtle Disparity'

Thanks for nothing.
What am i?
Just a pitstop?
Now that you feel like on top of the world,
now that it seems like things are going to be fine for you again,
you're gonna just discard me?
Well,thanks...
A lot...


-acap-

Labels: .....new name

'Don't Drag Me Into Your World Of Negligence'

New Blog Song:The Kill

Here it is.The Kill.Most probably the most well-known and recognised song by 30 Seconds to Mars in the shallow mainstream world.One of the best songs in their 'A Beautiful Lie' album,this song was their second single and the first music video that was directed by Jared Leto himself under the alias 'Bartholomew Cubbins'.The Kill remains the single that has won the most awards from the six singles released by 30 Seconds to Mars.This song means a lot to me personally.That's mainly because i can relate to the lyrics,which you can view at the end of this post.

Moving on,i fucking hate my stupid class.Kalau tak nak belajar,baik takya datang skola bodoh.Menyusahkan orang lain yang nak belajar je.I really can't wait for graduation so that i can leave those idiots behind and get a move on with my life.These people are the main reason why i keep going to school in a bad mood.I've been holding in my temper for close to two years and i doubt i can hold in much longer.I've tolerated their nonesense for too long.I don't want to give in to my temper.I don't want to be who i was back then.But my patience has limits.Very short limits...


'What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do? (Oh, oh)
What if I fell to the floor
Couldn't take all this anymore
What would you do, do, do?

Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you

What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do?
You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for?
I'm not running from you (from you)

Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside.
Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance.
I know now, this is who I really am.

Ah, ah
Oh, oh
Ah, ah

Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you, you, you.
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

Come break me down (bury me, bury me)
Break me down (bury me, bury me)
Break me down (bury me, bury me)

(You say you wanted more)
What if I wanted to break...?
(What are you waiting for?)
Bury me, bury me
(I'm not running from you)
What if I
What if I
What if I
What if I
Bury me, bury me'


-acap-

Labels: ......becomes impatience

'At The Cage'



























what's up with my hair?
well,we just finished playing soccer.whaddya expect??
hahah
one by one muke smue belom mandi.
hahah

-they were right when they said
practise makes perfect-

-acap-

Labels: .............mmmmmmmmmmmm

New blog song: Praying for a riot - 30 Seconds to Mars

this song is the second song that i'll be 'premiering' on this blog.
its a hidden track in their album "A Beautiful Lie'
lyrics are incredible
so many ways to comprehend and relate them
its depends on how you interpret them

'She walks outside
Among the men
Finding me
Your last...

Ten million miles away
Is closer to her
Inside...

Can't you see that
Her mind is broken?
Try and believe
Nothing is over...'

-acap-

p.s. sorry to my group members sani,manan and ilyas.
i had no mood today
and i didn't see any point in going for icp.
thats why i decided to go home and skip class
but i promise i'll have stuff for the project by next week.
i'm working on it...

Labels: .....of those days

'Nothing Seems To Change'

so should i laugh?should i get upset?should i get mad and turn green and start smashing things?should i go berserk with anger?should i?should i?should i!!?

well,you good people are probably wondering what the hell am i rambling about.to start off,my moods have been on a rollercoaster ride today.pleased,anger,disappointed,frustrated.you name it,i felt it.

thunderstorm was raging went i got home for school.not a good thing.i was pent up with rage and frustration inside and i had planned to let it all out by going jogging.so i had to wait till the storm passes.in the meantime,i watched the simpsons on my psp to try and calm myself down.it didnt really work.as soon as the sky stopped looking as if it was gonna flood good old earth,i went out for a run.not a good thing either.with all the anger i was feeling,i was running too fast to last the 3km+ route.i had a stitch that seriously felt like i had torn a stomach muscle(i don't want to say an ab,in case some fucker who's reading this thinks im full of myself).my calf was starting to clam up(yes asshole.you're right.i did not warm up.so?is it YOUR calf thats clamming up?).the worst part came when i had reached home.i was out of breath and my heart was in pain.in case,nobody knows(probably nobody cares either),i was born with a hole in my heart.so it was starting to cause problems again.this time,real bad.i could hardly breathe.the pain was so severe i was clutching my chest in the hope that somehow by doing that,it would ease the pain.at one point,i almost passed out.but who cares?

so despite that somewhat near-death experience(God,i AM afraid of you.im not prepared to meet you yet.),i was still full of frustration.which is the main reason why im ranting here.so what am i to the people around me?a tool to be used only when they need me?an ear to listen when they need to let something out?a source of entertainment when they're feeling down?then after all that,what then?

i'm partly to blame i guess.why do i stupidly trust people so easily?why do i believe their words just like that?im a fucking idiot thats why.


'under the burning sun,
i take a look around,
imagine if these all came down.
i'm waiting for the day to....
come....'


-acap-

Labels: ....that i got feelings too

'Moments Gone'

A happy 19th birthday to dear old Muna.
Da lama tk nampak batang hidung kau.
hahah


p.s. im sick right now.
fever so high.
but so in a good mood.
weird?crazy?
well,that's me for you.

-acap-

Labels: .......one step at a time