a lunatic's lament

lose your mind......

'The Moments Of Truth Are Never What You Want Them To Be'

First of,Sani has changed his blog and stuff.It looks simple yet pretty cool dude.Good job(as always).

Moving on,lets start with Friday.I met ZZ and saw his swollen lip.I was then told by him he got into a fight in school.To cut a long story short,apparently,he got punched from his blind spot.He wasn't facing the guy and the fucker took advantage by punching ZZ when he least expected it.Coward.They(the so-called 'mat reps') all are.So when ZZ was busy getting trying to figure out why the hell he was being confronted,what did his 'friends' do?They,typically,stood far,far away and watched like it was all one damn show.The same exact fucking thing happened to me when i was in Secondary 3.I was confronted in the school quandrangle during recess right in the face of everybody else.I was outnumbered 7:1 if my memory serves me right(i was busy plotting a way to get my ass out of that situation in one piece.I didn't had the luxury of time to count them.All i knew was that there was too many of them to be confronting one defenseless guy.Which,in this case,is me.).I was shoved and,at one point,slapped in the face.What did the rest of the damn school population did?They just watched me getting pummeled.To be fair to my close friends,none of them happened to be there.So i assume,if they were there,they would have helped me out.Now,if i were there when ZZ got confronted,I would have helped him beat the crap out of that guy.This is just not tough talk.ZZ is one of my closest friends for whom i will go to any length of trouble to help.Even if it means getting my face disfigured.Not that my face is wonderful to look at as it is(according to friends' opinions.Hahs!).I would sacrifice anything to help my true friends(you guys know who you are.If you don't,well,you're an idiot.HA!).It is only in times of real need,when you will know who your real friends are.Farhan is one of mine.During the time those idiots kept pestering me in Sec 3,he was always there by me.To at least ensure that,in case i got confronted again,i won't be alone.

Now moving on,after solat jumaat,we went to play soccer at the Cage in Kallang.I am very very disappointed with my performance that day.I was exhausted by the third game and basically just lost my way.I was technically,mentally,physically poor that day.I don't blame my team-mates for cursing me more than usual that day.I deserved it.I vow to improve by the next game.

So i slept over last night at Kak Ana's house.To watch soccer(to be more precise,Liverpool Fc)with her husband,Abang Faizal.It was 12+ in the morning when Liverpool scored the winning goal.Did we care?nooooopppeee...We shouted our throats out in joy.It was a miracle no neighbour screamed vulgarities at us to make us shut up.Next week,i'm going there again.Liverpool vs Chelsea.Its a must watch.

Went swimming earlier today with ZZ and Shafiq.Me and ZZ completed 30 laps.We used to be able to do 50.But since its been a long time,we decided to take it easy.Shafiq,coming with us for the first time ever,struggeled to keep up.I'm not sure he even reached 10 laps.Don't worry dude.You'll catch up soon.

On a leaving note,i'm working on a couple of songs for the band me and Manan are planning to set up.But i've been busy lately.Don't expect too much too soon.Oh and tomorrow is my BTT!Wish me luck.Oh and Abang Asyik and his sayang(whom i'm sure will be his wife in a few years time),Kak Aisyah dropped by a couple of hours ago.They look happy together.Good for them.Only downside is,me and Abang Asyik seem to be drifting apart.We used to be like brothers when we were younger.Oh wells....Shit happens.

'I swear to God i'll find myself in the end.
Will you be there when it happens?'

-acap-

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