a lunatic's lament

its time to set....

'I'll Be Your Saviour And It Could Be Just Like Heaven'

nothing much to update.went street soccer on monday.been a long time.i was pleased with my performance however.even though i did not play my normal 'run-at-defenders-and-fool-them-with-tricks' game,but instead played in a slightly withdrawn role(and therefore receving more of the ball)i felt i did better than the last time i played soccer at the Cage.i'm glad that horror stuff by me did not affect my confidence much.i was pleased with how i defended.and i finally started to feel at ease with my passing.maybe i'll start playing in a playmaker role.hmm...

started jogging again this week.am in a race against time to catch up on my fitness.match on saturday against a team we have never won(they are poly guys who are 2-3 years older than us.this is not an excuse.its fyi.).practise at St Wilfried on friday.looking forward to both days.however,my fitness is way off.before puasa,i regularly jogged from my flat in sengkang to punggol and back(which is about,give and take,3 km).now that i am starting again,its a struggle.its my own fault for procastinating.oh wells..

am writing a song at the moment.though i'm not sure whether i'll let manan listen to it.what's the point?my songs rarely get developed properly.so why write u ask?well,its an outlet for me to let out whatever thats bothering me inside.

speaking of which,you need a laugh,you need a backup in case u get involved in stupid fights,you need someone to count on,you need anything at all people,i'm the man.just as long as you don't take my kindness for weakness.yes,i do have a short temper.i have a history of bad temper(its in the genes.i got it from my mother.my father however,is alot more patient.he rarely raises his voice.and has never hit me.my mother on the other hand,has whacked me with belts,feather dusters,brooms,you name it,she did it back in my younger years.ironic huh?hahs)but i've disciplined myself to be more patient.but blow my fuse,and you're a goner.peace.

'Your reflection i've erased.
Like a thousand burned out yesterdays.
Belive me when i say goodbye
Forever is for good...'

-acap-

p.s. let's give it a chance
we could light up each other's worlds
and then maybe
it could be just like heaven...

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