a lunatic's lament

at the end of the day........

Verse 1
'When you come back i won't be here.'
She said and gently pulled me near.
'If you wanna talk you can call
And no it's not your fault'

I just smiled and said 'let go of me
But there's something that i just gotta know.
Did someone else steal my part?'
She said it's not my fault

Chorus
Then my heart need time in Siberia
Was waiting for the lie to come true
Cause it's all so dark and mysterious
When the one you want doesn't want you too..

Verse 2
I was drifted in between
Like i was on the outside looking in.
In my dreams you are still here
Like you've always been

Bridge
I gave myself away completely
But you just couldn't see me
Though i was sleeping in your bed
Was someone else on your mind
In your head?

When I came back she wasn't there
Just a note left on the stairs
'If you want to talk give me a call'

Chorus

that's the lyrics to the new blog song.
i feel connected to this song at the moment.
it kinda means a lot to me.
aanw i cant stand sitting at home
especially when i know other people are out there
enjoying life
all i do at home is eat and sleep
and i'm so bloody frustrated rite now
but there's not one single thing i can do about it.
damn it.
maybe it's time i open my eyes.
maybe it's time i realise.
maybe it's time for me to admit defeat.

'The promised one day
Will be just that.A promise.
That will never be kept.

At the end of the day,
I'm the one who always loses.
And gets hurt.
For the sake of other people's happiness.'

~miserable sacrifice~

-acap-

p.s. happy 19th birthday Yana

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