a lunatic's lament

my feelings towards you.....

zz last minute cancelled our plans to bowl.
so here i am again.
reflecting.
this is my second post in one day.
i don't want to comment about my previous post.
but i wanna blog about the chat me and zz had last night.
he talked about giving up on gals.
he talked about how us regular guys just don't have a chance.
how we are just too ordinary,too plain for gals.
we don't have anything to attract chicks.
we don't have the looks.
we don't have money.
we don't have anything.
all we have is our love,but according to him,
these days love alone is not enough for gals nowadays.
there are more things he said,
but i'm too lazy to put it all here.
well,
i agree with him on some points.
rejection hurts,
i know.
i've been there.
zz is tired of doing all the chasing,
doing all he can to impress the gal he's chasing.
who is,btw,a NYP gal and is pretty hot.
but she just doesn't seem interested.
well,
i can understand how he feels.
cuz i know how it feels.
but to me,
its just a matter of
whether you really want her or not.
whether your feelings for her are strong enough to make you willing to wait
and do whatever it takes
and make sacrifices
and to be patient enough.
and at the end of the day,whether its strong enough
to make her accept you.
basically,its up to you.
of course,this kind of things can't be forced.
if she openly says she just can't accept you,
then you can either go ahead and cry or
take it like a man.
either way its fine with me.
i think its better to let one's feelings out.
rather then keep it all inside.
but if you think she's still considering
and you still have a chance,
then by all means..
i don't know about you people,
but i'm not the type that changes targets quickly and easily.
i'm the kind that has to take time to forget.
especially if i have strong feelings towards her
and if she means a lot to me..
but after saying all that,
i still think gals are hard to understand..
hahs
btw,i'm setting up a side band.
Haliejah is involved.
she's gonna be vocalist.
i'm gonna play rythmn guitar and vocals too.
mann on drums.
and maybe alfian on lead guitar and keyboard.
we can't contact him.
he changed his numba or sumtink.
oh and irni,
if you're reading this,
i still want you on keyboard!
hahs

'If i wrote you a symphony,
just to say how much you mean to me,
what would you do?

If i told you you were beautiful,
would you date me on the regular,
tell me would you?

I've never been more sure about you,
these words here represents my heart,
everything i've been waiting for is you...'

'this is my chance,
i'll take it now because i can..'

-acap-

p.s.
blog song will be up by tomorrow.
my ripway account got locked.

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