a lunatic's lament

Ook..
Hello..
So today was like BORED..
Haiz..
Had EE claz in the mornin..
Was ok..
Den after dat met Aza & Debe..
Went to Sembawang sec..
Teachers day celebration..
Ok..
After dat..
Suppose to go to Friday prayers..
Bt missed it..
Gosh..
Haiz..
Sat at MacDonalds..
Chit-Chat,blablabla..
Planned to go bowling wif dear n my frens'..
Bt she didnt want to go..
Coz she was not close to them..
Aiyo..
Its not like i ask her to go wif them onli..
There's olwaes a reason y i ask her out..
Aiz..
Ums..
So reach Yishun Safra..
It was so pack..
People having competition..
They ol look like teachers..
Mayb..
So left wif no plans..
Wanted to go jammin..
Bt canceled..
Usual thing la..
No need to mention liao..
No wonder sum people aren't fit to be musicians..
So i end up wasting my whole Friday..
Haiz..
Never had a sOOOO boring Friday..
Im damn bored now too..
Mayb sum slip wuld help..
Cant keep having late nights..
Ok la..
Wana cleep..
Taking Carez!

-It too one moment,
To feel that ur my everything,
Bt it took a single moment,
To feel like i've lost everything-

boredom,
aN2'

Labels: -stupid-things-that-are-so-invalid-

Today a friend told me
That i was fierce.
Just to correct her,
yes i can be quite bad-tempered sometimes.
But im not fierce by nature.
It is the people with
their stupid attitude and their stupid behaviour
that triggers my bad temper
and makes me mad
which makes me fierce.
So to the fuckers who made me mad today,
fuck off.

'Under the burning sun
I take a look around
And imagine
If it all came down...'

-AcaP-

Labels: the sugary sweet promises thats gonna give me high blood pressure one day...i still remember your promises...

There was once,
I asked you,
"If we do get to see each other everyday,
will you get bored of me then?"
And you said,
"Its not the matter of me getting bored.
Its you.
Will you get bored of me?"
I replied this,
"Why would I get bored of you?
Im the one who likes you.
Im the one who's after you."
Then you just laughed.
What happened to those times?
Were you lying all these time?

There was once,
When i was in sec 3,
I gave up,
on girl i liked,
when i was so close,
to getting her.
Im not gonna make
The same mistake twice
Im not gonna make the same mistake on you.

'I still
Need you
I still
Care about you
After the way everything's been
Said and done..
I still
Feel you
Like im right beside you
But still
No word from you....'

-AcaP-

Labels: fallen but not gonna stay there.im getting up.

Check tis out!

INTROSPECTIVE EMO RANGER
CHAOS MOHAWK EMO RANGER
BLEEDING HEART EMO RANGER
CHRONIC STONER EMO RANGER
WEEPING TEARS EMO RANGER
FASHIONxCORE EMO RANGER

Wakaka!
Had nothing to do so juz update la..
Haha..
Btw they r cool..
EmoRangers!
Hahs..
Listen to the song oso..
Haha!
K till then!

quote frm sumone(cool to me),
-For a heart i can rely on tru anything,
For the one who i can run to-

goGoEmoRangers!
aN2'

Labels: chubby-cheek-smile2~

Woo!!
Listen2!!
My old time favourite!
Once performed playing tis song..
Bt very long time oreadi..
Bt its still nice luh..
Wakakaka..
Well,
Tis song is dedicated to ol of my frens,
New and old frens tat is..
Olwaes noe that i'll be there whenever u guys need me!
And to those couple's out there,
Having issue or watever..
Sought things out yeah?
Ums..
Hope u guys like the song..
Hahs!
Tc yeap!

-A Lonely September-

I'm sittin' here all by myself
just tryin' to think of something to do
Tryin' to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out
'cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind

[Chorus]
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did

I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself
that you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it
and the more I want you here with me
You know the holidays are coming up
I don't want to spend them alone
Memories of Christmas time with you
will just kill me if I'm on my own

[Chorus]
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back

I know it's not the smartest thing to do
we just can't seem to get it right
But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight
One more chance tonight

I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself with this old guitar
But with all my inspiration gone it's not getting me very far
I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you
Oh please, baby won't you take my hand
we've got nothing left to prove

[Chorus]
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did

And I didn't mean to meet you then
we were just kids
And I didn't mean to give you chills
the way that I kiss
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did
Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did
No, you didn't mean to love me back
But you did

aN2'

Labels: i'll-write-u-a-song

To my mom,i love you
Its ok if u cant afford the guitar
I understand
And no worries,i'll still paint the gate for you
:)

To Yana,i dont know whats goin on
All you told me was you needed some time alone
But its ok
I respect that
Maybe something personal happened to you
Whatever it is,be patient and berdoalah pada Tuhan
If you need me,you know where to find me k
And yes,i miss you...

'Im selfish
Why?
Cause i want only You
And no other
Is that kind of selfish wrong?
Hmm...'

-AcaP-

Labels: poisoned rationality

Hi there..
Ook..
So today very2 bored..
Didnt go out..
Aish..
Ook..
Did nthg much..
Played game,text,cook n many2 more..
Okok..
Cant seem to think of wat to post..
And i havent study fer tml EE test..
Btw..
Below are sum photos taken a couple of daes ago..
Enjoy!

"Father n son"

"The Trinity Symbol"

"Read tis sign!"

Adli,ambassador of the NO's in MRT..
Hahs!
Ok done!

-I took it all the wrong way,
And you're playing this foolish games,
I misunderstood you like me,
And you're driving me insane-

Tc,
aN2'

Labels: Sumone's-got-sumbody-by-her-side- ='

Even in my heart
I see
You're not bein' true to me
Deep within my soul
I feel
Nothing's like it used to be
Sometimes I wish I could
turn back time
Impossible as it may seem
But I wish I could
so bad...

Although loneliness has always
been a friend of mine
I've never really given a damn
People say I'm crazy
and that I am blind
Risking it all in a glance
And how you got me blind
is still a mystery
I can't get you out of my head
Don't care what is written in your history
As long as you're here with me...

I never thought that
I would lose my mind
That I could control this
Never thought that
I'd be left behind
That I was stronger than you
If only I knew what I've done
You know, so why don't you tell me
And I, I would bring down
The moon and the sun
To show how much i care
I've got this feeling
you're not gonna stay
It's burning within me
The fear of losing
Of slipping away
It keeps getting closer
Whatever reason to live
that I've had
My place is always beside you
And I wish that
I didn't need you so bad
Your face just won't go away...

*Unbreakable*

-AcaP-

Labels: i know we can win this

There you go
Tryin to crash
In my dreams again
When im tryin to get over you.
I tell my heart
But i cant seem to comprehend
A day without you

Now you're goin
Got a life
But i wear the scars
Reminding me by the hour
But its time to accept
Its the things are
I wish i could but...

I cant imagine it
Any other way
Without you is just wasted space
You're goin away from me
And i'll always wonder
Why cant you be
Any other way

Since you drained
All the colours out of the sky
How am i supposed to feel?
Its like im living
In someone else's life
Tell me its not real

-AcaP-

Labels: inconsolable

School ended so freakin early today

and im so freakin bored
anw i find those pics cool

so i juz had to share it wif you guys

'Im a failure by design

But its not gonna stop me'

-AcaP-

Labels: a revolution has started inside me

There's a kid in me!

Wakaka..
Today very bored sey..
Come skool play game..
Watch Sani do the java project..
N back home..
Haish..
Haha..
Hey u gotta watch the vid below!..

I wonder why sum people are stupid..
NO3!
Not stupid..
TOOOOO DUMB!
Hahs!
Stealing right infront of a rolling camera!
Gosh!
Sum people dun haf brains!
Ish3..
Well watodo?
Haha..
Juz laugh at them lor!
Hahaha..

K2..
I wana go..
Boredom!!

-late nights and reoccuring nightmares,
do nothing to help me overcome this insecurities,
have i imagine this would be happening,
my world came crumbling down-

HAH!
aN2'

Labels: memories-etched-and-i-forgive-but-not-forget

30 Seconds To Mars Live At Inland Invasion

This video is one of my favs

Anw,im not feeling well right now..

I feel feverish..

this video somehow lets out some of my stress

enjoy....

-AcaP-

Labels: show me the light..cuz im dumb...

Alone And On My Own...

The Battle Of One...

-AcaP-

Labels: 93 million miles away...

Adli

adli and mai

me and mann

our practical work during engineering essential

me and the improvised echelon sign

me,sani and ilyas

me wif the echelon sign and sani wif wateva dat is

us again

These pictures were taken yesterday...

yea...

Attack - 30 Seconds To Mars

This music video is dedicated to you..the haters,the ruiners of my life,the mothaf-ers...

"I won't suffer, be broken, get tired, or wasted.Surrender to nothing, or give up what I Started and stopped it, from end to beginningA new day is coming, and I am finally free

Run away, run away, I'll attackRun away, run away, go change yourselfRun away, run away, now I'll attackI'll attack, I'll aa-WHOOOAAAAAAAAA

I would have kept you, forever, but we had to sever.It ended for both of us, faster than a.Kill off this thinking, it's starting to sink inI'm losing control now, and without you I can finally see

Run away, run away, I'll attackRun away, run away, go change yourselfRun away, run away, now I'll attackI'll attack, I'll aa-WHOOOAAAAAAAAA

Your promises, they look like lies.Your honesty, like a back that hides a knife (knife)I promise you (promise you)I promise you (promise you)And I am finally free

Run away, run away, I'll attack Run away, run away, go change yourselfRun away, run away, now I'll attack I'll attack, I'll attack, I will attack

Run away, I'll attack, I will attack Run away, I'll attack, I will attackRun away (Run away), I'll attack (I'll attack)I'll aa-WHOOOAAAAAAAAAYour promises(promises, promises)I promise you(promise you)I promise you(promise you, promise you)"

'Its the end here today

But i will build a new beginning

You saw what you get

If you take what you take

Look in the eyes of the test

Its all because...

Now there's a feeling i get

When i look to the left

But it should never be sensed my searching for a sign'

-AcaP-

Labels: end of the beginning

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Its A Beautiful Lie..

Hello..
Well..
Let me juz post first b4 Acap do..
Um..
I dunno,
A while ago i was ok..
Bt I seem to be down..
Ugh!
I dunno la sey..
Hm..
Ook..
Today..
Time was fast..
Had Csk..
Presentation..
Then engineering..
Practical..
Den went to Borders at Orchard..
Find the deluxe edition of Thirty Seconds To Mars..
Bt OOS(Out Of Stock)..
So went to Novena..
Went to accompany Adies to TTSH..
And back home..
Dats ol la k?
No mood luhs..

-I olwaes thought i culd me the one,
Who makes u laugh,
Cheer u up while u're down,
Share those words wif,
Evitink till now,
That i finally see,
Im neva in the pictures of ur scene-

theOneUcalled,
aN2'

Labels: shall-i-laugh?

Ehem..
aN2 here..
So today Sani's wedding..
Haha..
Quite funny la..
Pengantin main peace2 lak..
Hahs..
Went wif Adli & Acap..
Met Mr Ong,Mr Ng,Miss Lisa,Ilyas,Ijal,Affad,Zul there..
The rest were no where to be found..
Haha..
Took pics..
Bt dun haf them wif me luhs..
Haha..
Enuf on today..

Well on 9 aug..
Went to see fireworks wif dear..(who else?)
Was real memorable luhs!
Dun haf the pics now..
Post it up later ya?
So..
Finally got to see her smile again..
Hope i made her feel hapie and strez free fer the day..
Whee!

Hahs..
Dunno y too hapie luh..
Okok..
Gtg now..
Acap!
Go3!
Dun gif up..
Btw its ok luh..
No trouble at ol..
Hehs..

-I want to be all you want me to be,
I want to be all the things that you see,
I want to be all the things that you share,
Bt would you leave me here when nobody cares?-

Kaboom!
aN2'

Labels: -Dear-you-

I dont know why
but im in a better mood right now
maybe its because i met up with adli and mann to go to Sani's wedding juz now
or maybe its because despite me sending a msg to yana by mistake
she still replied
i dont know why
but juz seeing her msg lift my mood up

anw,i got photos of Sani's wedding
but im not gonna upload yet
i'll wait till i get the other photos from Ms Lisa
thats all i have to say for now
adios folks

'Life is a blast
Its moving really fast
I gotta stay on top
Or else it would kick me in the ass'

-AcaP-

Labels: give me a sign...

Drowning In My Misery
thats what im feeling right now
im being sucked in faster then i realise

mann,thx for everyting
most of all,thx for believing in me
n sorry for all the trouble i caused you
but despite everyting,im still a f**king loser

adli,sorry you n mai had to wait for us for so long yesterday
im sorry
wont happen again
n i should have thought of a back up plan
dats my fault too
im sorry

Distressing
Depressing
Irritating
Annoying
Frustating
Disappointing
i guess im all of the above
well,as long as im not psychotic

I cant believe i made her bored
im so stupid
we rarely get to see each other
and dis one time we do get to see each other
i made her feel bored among other things
damn it
i suck big time

i can change i suppose
but then
it wouldnt be me
'its better to be hated for what you are
then to be loved for what you are not'
im a strong believer of that

i wish i strongly believed in myself
f**k la
where did my self-esteem go

Im a joker
i love to make people laugh
yea sometimes my jokes can be sarcastic
but i make sure the person knows im joking
but i did not expect my joke to make me almost lose yesterday
i guess im the joke now

Not the standard
Not the material
Not the type
Not whats needed
i guess thats me too

Im not sure whether i wanna go to Sani's wedding
not in the state im in
i dun wanna ruin it with my bad mood
i guess i gotta paste a smile on my face
i should at least be happy for him
even if i cant be happy for myself
Congrats Sani on your wedding

Drowing in my misery
there doesnt seem to be another way
except to go
down....

to Dianah and other haters,backstabbers and wateva other shit there is
Go To Hell

-acap-

Labels: shadow of the day...dats me...

Hello!..
Ok not gona update much..
Woah..
Bzbzbzbzbz..
Handling over 3 msgs at once..
Haha..
Ok guys..
I'll update bout yest later..
TakingCarez!

-echelon love-

help?
aN'

Labels: You-confess-you-weren't-alone

yea dats my wrist..but its not real..juz used a marker..

im juz posting to tell u guys im pissed at a certain sum1
i see wat ure trying to do damn it
n ure not gonna get it
i'll make certain of it
once or twice,im fine with it
but ure goin overboard
wat,u dont have anybody else?
do wat ure were asked to do and dats it
nothing else
ure crossing the line u f-er
of all people....

other den dis little problem dat i have
i feel happy or as close as i can get to being happy

happy national day

'i wish it was that easy'

-AcaP-

Labels: i wish i could set the sun for you

Helo..
Currently damn bored..
Need sumone to tok to..
No mood to design..
No new pics..
Except fer Adli's..
Bt its too small and there are lighting probs..
Cannot do vector seyy..
Wahh..
Dunno watodo oreadi..
Dammit..
Arr..
Bored seyy..
Nvm..
Anibody got pics fer me to edit tag at the tagboard ya..
Haha..
I'll c wether i'll do it..
Mayb..
Haha..
Acap,
The rest up to u k?
Hehs..
And dats ol fer today..

-Your objection is overruled,
I'm guilty of everything,
No need for the evidence,
Destroy your innocence-

amIdone?
aN'

Labels: y-tell-me-things-that-are-not-related-to-me?

Ohk guys
mann and adli
i tink e 2nd round sounds better

anw,this is the rest of it

'What I dont know wont hurt me
True
But knowing you're hiding something from me
Is Killing Me

Im Not Broken yet
But I've been cut opened bleeding
Struggling just to catch a breath
I realise you're the only one who can heal me

Wondering what i should do with my life
Just doesnt seem important anymore
Not until it rains one me the downpour
Of realisation of whether im worthy enough

The walls are screaming at me
'Its pointless,dont u get it
You will never achieve that goal of yours
Cause you're one heck of a loser'

Confused,I tear down these walls
And found out that
My goal is within sight and in my hands
Now the rest is up to me'

this lyrics juz came to me like that
it isnt meant for anybody
so klau ade sape2 terase
sori
haha
anw mann,amcm?
ade mcm emo sikit ar
but what the heck
haha

Dont-Get-Me-Wrong
Ive-Never-Doutbed-You

-AcaP-

Labels: woohoo..its getting closer..

I dont know why
but im suddenly in a bad mood
maybe its because of the flu that im having
damn it
anyway,mann and adli,how about this for lyrics :-

'What i dont know wont hurt me
True
But knowing you're hiding something from me
is killing me

Im not broken yet
But ive been cut opened bleeding
Struggling just to catch a breath
I realise you're the one who can heal me'

the words just came to me when i was walking home
now all i need is a tune

trust.very important.very precious.very fragile.

-AcaP-

Labels: still missing you.in my mind.in my head.in my heart.

Miz her la..

Hehs..
Ook..
So today wanted to go n c Military Police Perform..
Bt dun haf eh..
Dunno y la..
Bt usualy haf..
Okok..
So Me, Adli n his gerl walk2 ard Douby Ghaut aimlessly..
Haha..
We felt very bored as we dunno where to go..
I taut i remember sumtink bt dunno wat it is..
Finally after reching home i remembered..
Baybeats!!
Gosh!
How can i forget seyy..
Aish..
Well watodo..
Sori to Adli and his gerl..
I reali dunno today dun hap the performance..
Ishk..
Okok..
Here is where i end..

-You're my something,
You are my everything,
You're the one that makes me feel alive,
You end my suffering,
You end my misery,
You're the one that makes me feel alive-

iMissYouLa,
aN'

Labels: its-hard-to-move-you

Heylo
1st of all i'd like to say sorry to mann n adli
sorry i cant accompany u guys k
2nd of all,vote 4 thirty seconds to mars!!!!
3rd of all,i cant wait 4 friday
4th of all,i had a soccer match yesterday
against a team representing Masjid Al-Falah
85% of their team were made up of NS guys
my team lost 2-1 in the end
but i scored the only goal for my team
woohoo!
haha
i tried my luck from outside the penalty box
n somehow it went in
haha
the refree was an idiot
step mane nye pro je
my team-mate,halim,got elbowed in the face
his left eye lebam
his nose bled profusely
we had to sent him to hospital
but he's out n he's ok
5th of all,dats all i have to say

'Say that you believe in me
Say it to me'

-AcaP-

Labels: missing you still

Vote for 30Seconds To Mars in the 2007 Kerrang Awards!
Vote till ur fingers bleed!
If your fingers have had a chance to heal, it's time to vote until they bleed again!

Hehs!
U saw it..
So Vote!
Haha!
Well...
Today,
Went to Wlds..
Bought 2 pairs of warrior shoes..
One Black clr, the other same as Adli's..
Woots!
Dun haf the pic rite now..
Mayb nex time i show yeah?
Haha..
K la..
Juz wana update bout today..
Till later..

-If I could take your pain away,
I would scream for you,
And I'll bleed for you,
So you’ll never feel this way-

fakeSmiles,
aN'

Labels: another-victim-of-love

Missing you...

-AcaP-

Labels: Right here always...

Created On 3rd August 07.. =]

Hilo..
Me again..
Hahs..
So today was quite boring..
Had Engineering lesson(theory)..
Basically boring la..
Dun quite understand..
So..
Finish skool >> Friday Prayers >> Adli's house >> ~~Floorball Selections~~..
We made sum noise..
Nearly finish our song..
The final touches left..
Maybe haf to re-record..
Aiya..
Nvm bout dat..
Ook..
So here comes the most heartbreakin part..
Suppose to go fer the 'Collide' Floorball Team Selection..
Bt didnt turn up as i dun haf a proper floorball stick wif me..
And the one i haf is like ugh..
And its my second time to waste a wonderful chance to play floorball representing ITE..
ARRGHH!!!!
Sot oreadi liao..
May seem happy..
Bt im tossing evitink inside..
Aish..
Its ook..
At least i had fun at Adli's place..
Haha..
K lor..
Dats ol i haf to say..

--A-silent-song-thats-in-ur-words,
A-different-taste-thats-in-ur-mind--

Ohya,
aN'

Labels: Cn.u.hear.wat.im.sayin?

2dae was a day of mood swings for me
i started the day in an ok mood
den in class,my mood bcame bad
den after class,i was in a good mood
n it stayed dat way thru solat jumaat,at adli's hse n until now
hahs
mann and adli,finally its more or less done!
hahs
i tink the work we did is pretty good for beginners
haha
mcmnr leh terjiwang sikit ni?
haha
lantak la
sani,nice blog...
plain and simple...
geek.........
haha

"i'll wait while you're away
and sing dis song
dis song to you
to tell you whats goin on inside
cuz it seems so wrong to hide it all..."

-AcaP-

Labels: i never had the nerve to ask as my moment come and past

Life as a drummer..=]

Ello!

Well..

Like Acap said had PE today..

Gosh..

Tiring Sia..

Ow..

Aching eviwhere..

Well..

Not quite in a good mood..

1.Im so damn tired..

2.Haf to wait till nex month b4 getting a new fon..

3.No floorball sticks for tml's Floorball selection..

Aiz..

I reali need the floorball sticks seyy..

Aiyo..

K,dats ol la..

ums,

aN'

Labels: Jammin-anibody?

woohoo!
today we had PE..
we also had PIE and java lessons in the morning..
but PE was the most intresting one..
we had NAPFA test..
shuttle run and sit up..
congrats mann!!
haha
for being the fastest among us who turned up for PE..
haha
his time was 9.4 secs..
i share 2nd place with 2 other classmates..
my time was 9.7 secs..
adli got 10.1 secs..
try harder next time bro..
hahs...
sani 10.2 je??
kau action tkle lari laju je..
mentang2 da lepas NS,step malas nk uat NAPFA..
haha
then we did the sit up station..
i partnered with adli...
he managed to do 41..
sani partnered mann..
he did 40 sumtink..
i cant remember..
haha
i did 49..
mann did 48...
woohoo!
superb guys..
next challenge,2.4 run!
haha
we then played street soccer for awhile
it was so freakin hot i decided to play with just my singlet on..
haha
we played 3 on 3..
at the unused tennis court..
it was pretty big..
we barely played for 15 mins..
then we couldnt tahan anymore..
haha

-AcaP-

Labels: experience, loyalty, patience...no experience?no problem...i hope...